Okay...life is definitely interesting. I have to be the most cynical person in the entire world as far as my outlook on dating and love. I'm 16, and I have never kissed a guy, never been with one very long and don't really plan on that changing anytime soon. Why? Well, like I said, I have a cynical view on dating. I don't believe that any highschool relationships mean anything, anyway. Sure, some people's do. There are people in my neighborhood who are married highschool sweethearts, but I just know that isn't going to happen to me. A) I don't even know what I want. B) Most guys don't know, either. And I just don't feel like going through the relentless heartbreaking dating game. You know, it is a game. Sometimes it's a tug-of-war between the guy and the girl over who gets what they want. Sometimes one person wants to be worshipped and loved, and the other one wants sex. (I will NOT be sexist here, because it can go both ways.) And then a lot of times it's just creating an image that stuff is there. What is up with all this gift-giving crap? I mean, come on. It's not like you're with someone to impress them with however much money you can muster to buy a bunch of gifts for them. Sure, sometimes it's special. But it's turned into something that is wayyy overdone. And the words. Yes, the words. People tell each other all the time they love them. "I love you," they say. Do they really mean it? Probably not. So many people just say what the other person wants to hear. All this gift-giving and fake word-giving is just a bunch of crappio made to set an image that something is there that really isn't. Don't think I don't believe in love. Don't think I'm not absolutely sure that some day, I'm going to say the words "I love you," and mean them so much inside it makes me want to cry. I just don't think it'll happen in highschool. And I don't think anyone can fall in true love playing the stupid dating game. So no thank you, I'm content with the way my life is right now. I have friends, I have family, who could be happier? No studly boyfriend could make me any happier. In fact, all the girls who go out with studly boyfriends can be seen from time to time walking down the halls like zombies who got struck by lightning, and crying every moment they can find an escape into the restroom to attempt to be in seclusion because one of the studly boys broke their heart. They thought they had something, and they didn't. That hurts. I know it's going to happen to me. It happens to everyone. But I would prefer to keep those instances to a minimum, if at all possible. I hope I never give in to a guy's words. It's not the words, it's what the words mean, be it "I really want to please you right now and make it seem like we are the perfect couple and this will last forever" or "I've really never met anyone like you. When I'm with you, I'm so alive. I know I bring out the best in you. We bring out the best in each other. And everything with you is so real, and so genuine. If I had to spend my entire life with anyone else, it would shatter my soul." Obviously, I'd prefer the meaning to be the second one. And then for it to be perfect and ideal, which I will for sure get my perfect and ideal, I'd return the feeling. Which, of course I would. Hardly ever does anyone feel TRUE love and it does not get returned. Anyway, I can't get what I want in highschool dating. I know that. I can't get guys with me, and then expect that from them. Or from me, actually. Feelings come on their own, they can't be forced. So no dating for me. For now at least. (I told you I was cynical, didn't I? ;-) )