Some life I'm living, LOL. Another night of insomnia. This time, I went to bed at ten, and woke up at three thirty. I failed to fall asleep after that. Uck. I can't ever sleep. What's wrong with me? I'm so exhausted, so tired, I just want to fall asleep and relieve it...but can I? No. I just lie in bed and stare at the clock, wishing all the hours that were passing I could have spent resting. I used to take naps. Now, I can't even take naps. I can't sleep. I want to sleep, need to sleep, but it doesn't come. A sleeping disorder? Possibly. I might ask my doc for a few tips. At least it's not in the school year. I remember insomnia being the worst in the school year, because the teachers expected so much of me. They thought I was brilliant, and when I wasn't able to focus in class, it really miffed them off. My math teacher especially thinks I'm smart, and especially got angry every time I walked into his class like a zombie. How can I explain to people that I can't sleep? I drive my parents crazy explaining it to them. But who understands? There's something wrong with me, and it's probably my fault. I need to fix my problem. How can I, though? I don't want to becoming dependent on a bunch of sleeping pills. In the long run, that will only exacerbate the situation. Anyway, I need sleep...maybe I'll go try to sleep again, and sleep 'til nine or ten. If not, so be it. I'm going to get some advice from someone and learn about sleeping disorders and insomnia.