I feel so bummed. I don't know why. Well, I do, but it's hard to explain. I'm...lonely. That's it. Lonely. Not because I'm in seclusion, or because I have no friends. That's not the case. I do, and you can bet that I love them to death. Well, kind of. I'm just not too close with anyone right now. Not to the point that I can tell them everything. Or anything, at that. Maybe it's just my age...everyone's screwed up at my age, including me, and none of us know who we are. So how can we feel confidant enough to build anything significant? Oh, but it's just no fun. It's just like being secluded, actually. Even though I'm not physically secluded, I'm spiritually secluded, or however the heck you want to say it, you can say it that way. So...yeah. I just wish...that I had a friend I could...talk to, and do stuff with,and not be worried about anything...like image, impression, or... you know how with some people you're always worried about whether you're saying the right thing or not? I'd want it to not be that way. I'd want it to just be carefree and fun. And...in a way, intimate. Not physically...don't get me wrong. I'm not wishing for a sensual, spiritual, lifelong boyfriend. Absolutely not. Just a friend I could be close with. But...it's not happening. Not yet at least. I have many friends, I'm not complaining. And they are all very nice to me. And we do fun stuff, and have great fun. This is a fantastico time of my life. It's very exciting, very interesting. Very much so a learning experience. There's just that hole lurking in the back of my mind....