So I was reading through my old blog entries...dating back to 2002, fun stuff. I used to be a lot more personal than I am now. I guess I don't have to be paranoid about what I say in here as I have been. After all, it's not like I'm wanting to talk badly about anyone.

I'd like to apologize to F.B. if she/he was offended. I'm sorry if it sounded like I was saying that people who have problems should pretend nothing is wrong and feign happiness. I was really trying to say in terms of me and many others like me that sometimes we just are hoping for more to come instead of seeking happiness in the moment.

With that having been said, I'd like to start one of my lengthy entries. Recently, I met someone a lot like me who likes to dance around the main point of things by covering stuff up with intellect. I am a very intellectual person, and sometimes I like to think about stuff too much instead of just dealing with it. It's a lot easier to look at myself from that calculated distance. But, I must say, it's hardly effective.

I had an absolutely wonderful evening. Tonight was the Kappa Alpha Theta at Colorado State University's initiation of new members. For those who have reservations about sororities in thier minds, I'd like to clear that up really quickly. WE ARE NOT THE STEREOTYPE. I'm sure some sororities are, but I know we aren't. We are not cookie cutter girls, if you know what I mean. There are blonde gorgeous girls, and there are average, stocky brown haired girls. There are fashion design majors, and chemistry majors, and engineering majors, and business majors. And like me...microbiology majors (Just me and one other girl though.) There are wild girls, and there are really conservative girls. There are intellectual girls; there are girls that aren't really that into anything like that.

No, they never made me get up in front of everyone when I was a pledge and highlight all my fat. No, they didn't give me a bottle of whiskey and make me drink until I threw up. And no, they did not tell me I could date only frat boys.

In fact, they never hazed me in any way...when I was a pledge, or now. And actually, they refuse to call them pledges...they are specifically "new members" versus "actives." They don't even try to manipulate my life outside of Theta in any way. It's my business. They might ask for all the juicy details of everything I've done cuz girls love to talk about stuff, but they haven't ever pressured me to keep them informed on everything and that it has to be a certain way.

So, tonight, we did initiation. That involved us doing our rituals and then going to the city park, where we made S'mores and sang Theta songs...SO fun. When we were done, my friend Molly was driving three other girls and me back and right as we were leaving, this car of guys drove by and they threw fireworks out the window at the girls still at the park roasting marshmellows! Oh, man! What idiots! The fireworks went through the branches of some trees and toward the girls, and we were screaming. Luckily, no one was hurt. Molly tried to chase them down, but it's really hard to follow guys when you're going 40 MPH in a 25 MPH speed limit area and they're still going tons faster than you.

Jerks.

Anyway, we got back and socialized and watched movies. There are probably girls still there, but I was tired and came back to the dorms to write this entry and go to bed. So, yay! Good night! :-)