I can't believe it's December 15th! One week till my birthday! Hehe.

Anyway, finals are over. And I must say, that was the crappies freaking semester ever. Never in a million bajillion years will I ever think about taking Calculus, Physics, Chemistry and Biostatistics at the same time. And I need to figure out something. Because I have never, ever put so much effort into school before--and never, have I ever done so poorly! I am sick of feeling stupid! Either I hone my study habits and it works, or I quit and decide that I just don't have the brains for this major.

In the meantime, vacation! I guess I just have to try and forget about the shitty semester...I mean, at least not dwell on it. "Those who do not remember the past are condemned to relive it." Definitely don't want that to happen. But I don't imagine stressing about it is going to help at all. It's over. There's nothing I can do. Failure hurts. But...maybe I should think about Thomas Edison and what he said before he succeeded as well. "I have not failed. I've just found 10,000 ways that won't work."

So...what does work?! Dammit! I want to know! Or I want to know what will work for me, cuz...yeah. This sucks!

Anyway, yeah, break! I am definitely going to read for some fun...and it has been requested that I mention what I intend to read. Let me be honest, though. What I intend to read and what I actually end up reading are a little different. Or maybe a lot. I don't know. We'll see.

There's a Michael Cricton book I've been wanting to read...I really enjoyed Timeline, so I wanted to pick up something else written by him. I also want to read The Poisonwood Bible by Barbara Kingsolver. I started it up at CSU, but if a student recalls a book, the borrower has to return it before the initial due date, and that happened to me, so I couldn't finish it. Boo. She is such an eloquent writer. The first "entry"...I'm not sure what to call it because I don't think it's an entire chapter...is so beautiful. Tragic, of course, but I didn't know anyone was capable of using the English language like that. I was very impressed.

I haven't read The Da Vinci code yet, and I have been informed time and time again that it is a must-read. So if I get the chance, I want to read that.

I want to read a nonfiction something about microbiology/infectious disease. I need to remind myself why I started all this crap in the first place. There is a reason I'm doing this! Not because I was initially pre-med, or because I wanted to get into vet school. NO! I was in it because microbiology was fascinating to me! When I took it in highschool, I loved it. Look at my blog archive from my sophomore year in highschool! http://jessnpenali.blogspot.com/2002_05_12_jessnpenali_archive.html

Which is another reason I'm kind of devastated by the way this semester went. It's not the microbiology that's stopping me...it's all the shit I have to take in the major that ISN'T microbiology. Screw it! SCREW IT!

Anyway, I would lik to read all those books. I probably will only get to some of it, though, and I could also stumble upon something else to read that'll distract me. But oh well. Reading is fun. If I get distracted, so be it! I'm not dead yet...I still have tons of time to read.

Now time for some unpacking. I'll be on to gush about my winter break reading sometime soon...