Life is so hectic these days! But it's a good thing, I guess. It'll soon be calming down somewhat, since school will be letting out. On the other hand, I'm going to start working and my social life will definitely take a little more time to say the least. Summertime is friends time, that's for sure. It's already picking up as it is. Yesterday, I spent all afternoon and evening with friends. This evening, I will be seeing Spiderman a second time with another group of friends, and I saw it last week with other friends. It's so much fun. I'm so sick of school, which controls which friends you get to spend time with when. When you don't get any classes with your fantastic buds, too bad, so sad. Actually, school isn't very nice to me as far as that goes. I've never had one class in my entire life with my best friend. I only have one year left for that, too. She's going to be a senior next year! The only way I'll have a class with her is if I do an elective with her. For first semester next year, I'm taking 35 credits as it is, which includes three science classes, a math class, a history class, newspaper, and French. That includes four honors, IB or AP classes! I don't have time for little eensy weensie electives anymore. Plus, Maike will be here. I don't want to bite off more than I can chew here. Anyway, I have a lot of stuff to do before the movies tonight, including homework, cards and presents (Tomorrow is Mother's Day AND my dad's 53rd birthday) so I'd probably be better off getting all that stuff done as soon as possible. Tomorrow's a busy day!

I am such a nerd. I have to say, I do have a social life, and I did stuff with friends both Friday and Saturday, so I'm not too bad as far as that goes, but...my goodness. When I wasn't doing stuff with friends, know what I was doing? Leisure math. Oh yes, leisure math. Sometimes I do musical mathematics, or at least discover little music patterns, or read about them. Yesterday and today I spent hour after relentless hour just doing math. I love math, but I can't crack the thing I've been trying to for days. It's getting on my nerves, and making me really frustrated. I have this work ethic that works like this: I start it, I finish it, it's done with, it's over. It can take me forever and a day to finish it, but I like to finish it all at once. This isn't happening. Every time I have to leave it and go somewhere else, I get that horrid itch on the side of my consciousness saying "Jess, you aren't done. You haven't figured out that equation...you're going to forget your place, and have to start all over..." Dangit. I don't want to have to leave it again. Right when I'm finished here, you can guess where I'm going. To finish that equation. I'm almost done. I've just got to put together my conjectures. Easier said than done. I'm frying my brain as this goes. But I figure if I get it done tonight, I can show Mr. Hardy tomorrow. He always has interesting things to tell me about math whenever I show him what I've been working on. Sometimes, when I'm doing this, I feel so stupid thinking about how many people have probably figured out the same thing, and the likelihood being zero that it took them as long as it did me to figure it out. I just need a higher IQ, that's all, LOL. Oh well. This one, as I was born with it, will have to do. And I'll get it. I've at least got my drive. Genetics can dominate many areas, but they can never, ever kill your drive.