I don't have too much to say today, though I usually think that's the case until I start writing and the thoughts start flowing. I really miss my CSU friends right now. I know there are some of my sorority sisters in this area...I need to call them. I am so bad about calling people and staying in touch. I'm used to living in the same house as them and just having to walk to the next room to talk. But for the rest of my life after this, I'm going to have to CALL people.

So. I need to make a list of people to call. Lists are my friends. As long as I remember they're there so I can look at them and complete them.

Which, speaking of lists, I need to make a list of the things I want to do with my life and start building a routine, an effective routine that reduces my stress. That would be awesome. I am an extremely stressed out person. I realized that. I never thought I was, but in truth, I'm paranoid and anxious and all-around pretty tense. Which isn't good. Life would be more fun if I could just relax and have fun every once-in-a-while. Which I do want for myself. I want that in addition to my efforts starting to become effective. I have to want both of those; life isn't all about succeeding. It's about relationships and having fun too! And when I mean relationships, I don't necessarily mean just romatic relationships. I mean all kinds, and especially friendship in my case. Friends are so, so important. I have them, but the fact that I keep getting lost in my battle to succeed academically and lose touch with them is bad!

And wow, it's starting to storm like no other! That was one crazy gust of wind. It almost picked up the table outside...man, scary!

Anyway, I have to start prioritizing and making sure I get my needs met. It's okay to fight for academic wellness, but...not to the detriment of my other areas in need of wellness.

Ahh! It's hailing! My caaarrrrr!!!!! Nooo! Oh, man, that is a raging storm...kind of like me inside! I think everyone feels like that sometimes. Or all the time, in one way or another. I guess that's the only way to equalize imbalances in pressure, right?

And can I say I love my sister's friends? They are adoreable and sweet and so nice to me. I wish I'd had that kind of a group in highschool...I never really fit into one place. At least now I fit somewhere, now as in college, which isn't really now because I'm stuck at home away from college. But still. I have something to look forward to. So...whoohoo!