And...it's been alomst a month since my last post. My, how time flies. It's amazing how when we pack more and more into a tiny bit of time it seems to go by faster than when there is absolutely nothing packed into that time. You would think that a lot would seem like more, and a little would seem like less. But I guess it comes down to the fact that "If you watch the pot, it never boils." And if you don't have time to watch it, the entire dang thing evaporates before you even check on it.

And yes, the pot is starting to evaporate away for me. I have less than a month left of my sophomore year, and then--eye opener--I am halfway done with college. That is, if I stick with microbiology, which is currently the plan. This has ended up being one of the most challenging tasks I have taken on, but might end up forcing me to grow the most as a person. If I decide that isn't the way I want to grow, I'll probably end up leaning towards becoming a therapist. However, I feel like taking the path of least resistance won't benefit me personally as much. My defense mechanism for any areas of my life that I feel are lacking is altruism; I have a lot of practice in getting other people's needs met, but very little in getting mine. Therefore, I need to go out there and do something challenging, and damn near impossible...and use my "help" abilities to help myself through it. Then, I'll grow as a person. If I just settle and continue helping everyone else, I'll still be just me. And while that isn't the worst thing in the world, why settle for less if I can strive for more?

And...Happy Easter to everyone! I am actually at home now, just for the day, and about to head upstairs to meet our neighbors and my family to have a lovely Easter dinner. Last night was my Theta formal, which was tons of fun, and I'm sure will be one of those memories I draw out as an old, fragile lady someday when I am telling all the youngsters about my days of yore. And then, just like I once did, they will sit there with big eyes, wishing they would grow up already and get to that fun part, but thinking they never would. Then...blink! There they are!

Just like...blink! Here I am. I hope it isn't as quick a blink to my deathbed, though I suppose being only twenty years old, proportionally speaking what the next blink will bring me is financial independence, marriage, and kids. I don't plan on that happening anytime super-soon, but the time between now and then, I'm sure will pack quite a bit of activity, so I won't have time to notice the pot is boiling and evaporating. Or I could die in a car accident tomorrow. Who knows?

Oh well. I am having fun, for now. That's what counts. Even though time flies when I pack everything in, I still want to do that, so I can say that I seized every opportunity that happened in my direction. I guess there are always consequences for taking risks and losing, but I don't want to be the one who just didn't take the risk and would therefore never know. Asking if we are worthy of better things is scary; but if we don't ask, the answer is always no.

And now it is time to pry myself away from my introverted ways and be social, which will, I'm sure, be fun, so I am off. But everyone have a Happy Easter! And as that Harvard guy said in the class of '99 speech..."Do something every day that scares you." That's my bit of advice for today, and I'll see if I can't follow it myself.