Well, I haven't written in here in forever and a day, and I figure I need to start writing things down so I can...I don't know...have a clearer image as to where I am these days. Sometimes I don't even know anymore. Everything seems like it's a huge whirlpool, even though my life isn't exactly hopping. I guess I've been kind of depressed, but it's getting better. Hopefully it will continue to do so.I haven't had much of a social life. I hung out with Kim last night, which was definitely fun. I think I need to be a little more proactive, though I have to accept that my social life just isn't going to be what it is at college while I'm down here. I have just grown apart from so many people, and honestly, I wouldn't want it to be any other way. And I don't meet that many people. Maybe I could hang out with a couple people I've met in class...I'm taking classes at the University of Colorado at Denver, and the class is small, so I've kind of made a couple comrades. At least people I say hi to and ride the light rail home with. Maybe we'll form study groups and hang out a bit. Or maybe not. But I should try. Why not? One of the girls in my class is actually a biology major at CSU. She's really cool. Her name is Nahid.

And I have officially inherited my grandma's car, which is a '99 Buick Regal. It's really nice. But I can't help but feel remorse for no longer driving the Purple People Eater. She represents my personality so well: she stands out not because of perfection, but because of originality. And she's cute! And come on, I've wanted a purple car since I could talk and I said "Mommy, I want a purple car when I grow up." So I got a purple car. And now I am getting a tan car! And it's amazing; the transmission actually works, and it has air-conditioning! But I need to do something to it to make it a ME car. It won't ever be the Purple People Eater. But...come on...a Buick? I definitely need to spice things up a bit. Will, one of the two kids I nanny for (he's fourteen...he's really cool...they really just need someone to stay there in case the shit hits the fan and to drive them around, so I get paid to hang out with cool kids) said that he would put flames on it for me. LOL. I am not exactly a flames kind of girl. My mom said I should put flowers on it. Haha, I don't think my dad would be too happy about me doing anything to the paint. But I should think of something. I wonder if they have stuff for that at Car Toys. The toys part sounds rather enticing, I'm not gonna lie. Maybe I could find something cute there.As for school--wait, why am I talking about school? The mere thought of it makes me want to gag. And who wouldn't? Three and a half hours of physics lecture two days a week, plus three and a half hours of physics lab. Blah. Shoot me now.

And Spammy is supposed to call me when she gets back from work. Hopefully we can do a least a little bit of something fun. Her stupid work, she works so late! I want to play more! :-( Too bad everyone is gone this summer. I am so bored!Oh! But I started volunteering again at the House of Hope, and it's actually REALLY fun this time around. I think for a couple years, I went through an anti-kids phase. I've always loved kids, but I all of a sudden found myself pretty intolerant with their behavior and childish ways. I am pleased to discover that that phase is over, and I can return to having a blast playing with kids. That's when I do my work the best; my job is to reach out to the kids, be a good role model, and make them feel like they have a connection to me. Kids at homeless shelters don't need someone just helping them; they need someone to be their friend. And I feel like I can do that better now that I love them again instead of getting annoyed with them being kids.Wow, I am ranting. I need to write in here more. So I don't write mile-long entries. More entries shorter in length should probably be my approach. Let's see if I can't get a little consistency going here for once! Speaking of consistency, my lack thereof has forced me to begin cramming for my physics exam on Monday. So I should go do that until Spammy calls. So, peace out!